Prayer is the ultimate privilege that Christians have in “the waiting game.” I realize this as I ponder the extraordinary outlet of communication with our Heavenly Father that the Holy Spirit equips us with.
I see this in full-color as I pray. Rest. Wait.
- I pray because I have unwavering faith and I long to communicate with my Father.
- I rest because I fully believe that God has total control.
- I wait because God has placed in my heart the yearning for something more.
Those three actions (to rest, to pray, to wait) ARE NOT independent of each other. A person must DO all three actively in order to find full contentment!
I am not going to be quiet anymore!
I heavily lean on Christ’s power and strength because I realize that I am weak and my mind wanders continuously- always. I rely fully on Christ’s promises in everything! My savior has come through for me in the past and He will come through for me as I follow his lead through valleys of utter turmoil. He has promised to protect me and my faith remains strong in Him!
I am currently balancing a broken personal life with a rededicated, thriving faith and the opportunity of independence! I trust the Holy Spirit to equip me with all I need!
Jesus, Lord of my life, use me! Show me the steps of faith you ask of me and I will be diligent and unquestionably follow your footsteps. My heart is ready to free-fall into your peace, Heavenly Father. I see your work throughout every day of my existence. I realize the despondent depths you had to carry me through as experiences to build my faith and strengthen my spirit for your kingdom!
It is well with my soul. I am Yours!
In the early morning hours, a random buzz came at my apartment door. Stumbling to the kitchen after I immediately awoke from it with my blurry vision, I thought I hit the “speak” button but accidently pressed the “open” button for the door connecting the walkway to the apartment buildings. Considering that I may have just allowed a mass murderer in, I couldn’t fall back asleep and jerked and menacingly stared at my closed bedroom door whenever I heard the slightest creak or groan in the floorboards.
I awoke from a late night last night of writing a paper on Jehovah’s Witnesses. Everything I’m learning or have learned about them is contradictory and their lives are built on blatant lies found within their VERY OWN scriptures. I was appalled at everything I was learning and no, I wasn’t learning “how to hate on jehovah’s witnesses,” but more importantly, “how to witness to jehovah’s witnesses.” I learned many objective truths about what their religion has developed from. It was a very eye-opening night… I will say that.
I’ve been enduring a terrible onslaught of visions/ thoughts that really don’t correlate with my plans or my lifestyle. I feel powerless in this situation and I need to cease and desist. God promises believers in the Bible that if you resist the devil, he will FLEE from you!
With spiritual authority in Christ’s name, I’m confronting this issue and curtly telling the ungodly nuisances compiled in my head to FLEE.
Learning how to relate to people comes second to determining IF you even want to relate with them in the first place. I bring this up because lately I have been very prone to hermitting myself up in my apartment. I have been downright SCARED of letting people into my life because my thought process frightens even me.
THE LORD is my shield. I have begun to determine the spiritual warfare in my life that I have been susceptible to in the last month. Now that I recognize it and the cause of it, I mustn’t be interrupted from my relationship with God, and I most certainly will fight against it!
My God IS everything!
On September 12, I prayed Psalm 51:10-
“Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a right spirit within me.”
This verse has saved me countless times because I have never ceased to believe in God’s ability to do that.
It has taken me close to a full year to realize that God is acting on my behalf. If you’re close to me, you are aware that this past year has been VERY tumultuous for me and there have been many moments where I have questioned God. I am not proud to admit this but I want everyone to know how great our God truly is!
To be honest, it still feels very odd to look at my situation in a positive light, though through as much of the pain as I am enduring, God ultimately has it all figured out and I hold fast to the promises of His blessings which are strongly emphasized in the Bible.
Reading through Psalms 1, it is easy to assume that it is “quick” however, there really is MUCH to dwell on with this scripture. The first 4 lines caught my eyes right off the bat,
Oh the joys of those
who do not follow the advice of the wicked,
or stand around with sinners,
or join in with scoffers.
I am guilty of all three of those actions within this past year and my restless mind and thoughts can attest to that. I immediately repented and plead the previous verse I mentioned, that God would create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me.
I see doors opening all around me now and I pray that the reluctance of my heart submits to His graciousness.
Tonight I met a very wise person at Caribou who showed me a life-changing verse.
“10 The rain and snow come down from the heavens and say on the ground to water the earth. They cause the grain to grow, producing seed for the farmer and bread for the hungry. 11 It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.”
Scripture WILL reach the people God has already pre-selected to hear His word. That is evident. I strongly feel that God had me meet that person to help me distinguish that.