I feel like my life is based on how other people perceive it- and what the hell? That isn’t who I am deep down. I am a writer. I need to practice my craft more. I don’t mind if my family becomes seriously concerned because there is really no reason for their concern. I’m being myself. I need to finally take this step on my own. I cannot abide by guidance any longer. To you, that may seem foolish- but your approval is not important to me.
I am a young person. I know where people are trying to push me but it doesn’t feel right. Finding what is right seems to be a very arduous process. Happiness means sacrificing. Really not sure what that fully means yet. I need to process everything in my mind. There is so much about life that is not set out in a step-by-step instruction. Looking at everything from a different vantage point all together opens up new possibilities. New regrets.