Feeling introspective yet content is a new breed of emotion for me. However, I rebuke anything that is not of God and that is the emotion I’m left with. Surprisingly, I feel relieved as if I would never feel this way again. I would love to be rest assured that my mind will remain this calm but my mind is reluctantly restless. I always end up rewinding and it has caused nothing but remorse.
My mindset is different than my mind. It is far more steadfast and resilient. I’m trying to regain who I was, what I stood for, to find where I belong but all of this, I realize, is nothing but foolish. I belong in Christ. I need to rest in His arms and really devote myself to His domain.
I am making a public statement for my dedication and devotion to Christ, my Lord. He IS my heart’s devotion, everything my soul longs for. I am the daughter of Heavenly Majesty.
Salem, one of my good friends, had a really eye-opening conversation with me last night where it became clear to me that all of my inward struggles and demons are UNDERNEATH the power of Christ. I REBUKE them all in His name… every twisted thought, vision, fear.
I comprehend my weakness.
Please Father, give me strength to righteously deal with this pain!