Today, I wonder what you are going through… The court date was today, I feel sick with knowing that you are most likely going to resent me fully for this. Please understand that I felt like I couldn’t choose not to report it. Sara witnessed me on the phone
with you and told me that I could either report you to the police, or I would be forced to leave that very night. I felt like she was twisting my arm. I sincerely didn’t know where I would stay that night and I know that you couldn’t provide.
Even though you wanted to, you didn’t have the means. I don’t have the means. I pray that in time, the means will find us.
I know we can’t be together. I’m angry for trying as hard as I did. When we would argue FOR HOURS, I was already shutting down. That was why my defenses were short and withered into silence…